back online again

PHEWW! i finally made it back online..for awhile i didn't think i was coming back.
with some help from my friends and family here i am back online.
over a month ago, i was admitted to the Institute of Pyschiatry Downtown Charleston, SC....i spent a week there because I was so depressed I didn't trust myself and i could barely get out of bed. My dad took me to the hosptial when i started talking about how i felt that i was better off dead.
That was the second time I had to be admitted in the hosptial this year, the first time was when i over dosed on Prescription medication.
I'm currently taking Tegretol, Seraquel (sp?),Visteral and Zoloft is now being started as soon as i get a way to the pharmacy and some money for my meds....

Some particular guys that USE to be part of my life is trying to come back in namely Scott but i won't let it..... he dumped me twice too many and left me lookin like a fool. I may talk to him online but i'm not even going to visit him in person...i can't trust a person like that.
actually, i don't want to date anyone...i'm not ready...i have too many problems already brewing that would be adding fuel to the fire....it would be too stressful for me to be in a relationship at this time...ya know.???